A tearful forced bi confession

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Serving my superiors and loving Mistress.

 

Mistress likes me stand back unobtrusively when I am attending Her. Except when I am fetching and serving drinks or snacks. Then I must quickly curtsy and make myself unobtrusive again. Sometimes She might pat my bottom before I move away. If She has one of Her friends over the friend might also pat or squeeze my bottom before dismissing me. I will put the silver serving tray to one side then wait quietly, sometimes I am instructed to stand facing the wall. I am not allowed to speak without being spoken to and must always curtsy if I am spoken to and when replying. Like a good sissymaid & sissywife, Mistress has trained me very strictly, Her canes and crops were and still are very good teaching assistants for Her. 

In contrast when one of Mistresses  friends brings a boyfriend or just a male friend over, I must stand very close to Him or them. In their personal space, in my intimate space as a plaything for their enjoyment. Sir will often slap or fondle me idly as He enjoys His drink and chats. His strong hands underneath my dress sometimes in my panties feel so intrusive and owning. His tone and manner always patronizing, domineering. Mistress says She loves watching Sir treat me like this, loves watching me tremble and quiver, curtsying full of sexual vulnerability to His every word. She says She gets the same excitement sending me for the strap on and watching me kneel in front of Her lubing it.

Somehow I always feel so hot and damp when His hands are on me. And Mistress says my skin is

always flushed with arousal when a real man is around. One of the many side effects of the strong hormones and sissy treatments (mostly chemical but sometimes physical). Is that sissies and especially pale sissies show signs of sexual excitement, skin flushing very evidently. This is especially noticeable on the upper rear thighs, face and upper chest, though Mistress prefers my uniforms to be buttoned up  to the collar at the moment. Though if She one decides that I am to have  implants or the hormones for breast growth, my uniforms might then be very low cut indeed, like a few sissies wear, and especially it seems sissies owned by Masters. Sissies owned by Masters also tended to be gelded or snipped, although that has gone of vogue now, as the often gelded sissies lose the sweet desperation to please that enforced chastity stimulates.

My pale skin gets very flushed and pink and feel hot when I am near Sir and my nether regions feel like warm jelly and His hands always feel so firm, and my skin so tender wherever He decides to touch me down there. I feel so vulnerable and helpless, and get so desperately near orgasmic, so shamed. It is nearly the same as it feels with Mistress and Her strap on, and also whenever I kneel serve Her intimately with my phallic plug expanded to its 12” maximum length and width. Although with Mistress I ache & long to please Her lovingly. With Sir although I still don’t dare admit to myself, my body and emotions betray my need to submit and to sexually please Him and to be seen as pleasing to Him. 

Miss often calls me Her boyfriends little blow job bimbo, which very much amuses Mistress. But She always reminds me that I must be a BJ bimbo for all Her male guests and visitors. And always make sure my pretty little ass is inviting for them too, even though its exciting for them if I struggle and whimper pitiably, when they bend me over and split my bottom with their cocks. The more I struggle weakly the more they enjoy my sissy rape, and my muffled, panty gagged cries of sexual distress and submission. knowing that they  don’t care about my sissy distress as long as they enjoy fucking me, and that they enjoy my weak feeble struggling  the more aroused and orgasmic I get. Whether or not it’s a real man with His throbbing cock or Mistress with Her hard strap on.

The first time Mistress penetrated me with Her strap on, which was relatively small,  I had sobbed with loving submission so much as She came, that Mistress didn’t put me straight between Her thighs for a second orgasm on my tongue, as She often does now. Instead She sat me next to Her on Her couch, perching on the edge primly and allowed me to sit quietly holding Her hand and looking up into Her eyes for a few moments. Then She had sent me to fetch Her a drink and had knelt me down beside Her and allowed me kiss Her thigh occasionally whilst looking up Her and telling Her how much I loved Her. After  a short while She shushed me, but allowed

me to remain kneeling for a short time before sending me back to my chores. She told me later that evening as She knelt me between Her thighs in Her bedroom, that She had been very aroused and pleased by how sweet I was after penetration, but She had decided to wait till bedtime before enjoying my tongue. Mistress says that boys are often too impatient and sometimes for Her its much more delicious to wait a short while. For sissy of course this is never an issue.

Mistress had even give me a spot of wine from Her finger tip. She does sometimes give me a tiny sip or a little corner of a sweet pastry to nibble on. When She is feeling very intimate and loving in that way. Always fed from Her fingers of course so we both  know it’s a very special indulgence. At other times She keeps the strap on, on all has me kneel and lick and suck it clean slowly, whilst looking up into Her eyes. Because it has its own special intimate insert for Mistresses pleasure, sometimes She will make me suck it until She orgasms again. At other times its just to clean the large phallus. Of course that first time the strap on & my plug were smaller, but they still always felt so big and I always felt so full and penetrated by Her.

Mistress has said over time I will feel that way with a real man too, totally vulnerable to Him after

penetration. And in truth after Sir has fucked me I do always want to cling to Him in submissive tears and let Him hold me and patronize me in His big strong arms. That first time with Mistresses boyfriend, He had just ordered my to lick Him clean and fetch Him a beer before a loud dismissive slap on my bottom and back to my chores. But the next time when Miss brought Her boyfriend round, after He had taken me to my little bedroom and fucked me. He brought me downstairs and after I had fetched Him a beer He sat me on His knee and let me cling to His arm. Miss’s boyfriend like most real Men on the scene is tall and very well built.  After I had thanked Him submissively for enjoying my ass and licking His huge manly cock clean, He told me I was a good little fucktoy as well as a BJ bimbo , slapped my bottom and sent me mincing away back to my chores.

Behind me I heard Him laughing with Miss & Mistress.

That was the only time He had done this as usually He is very dismissive with me and any sissy after sex, this is quite natural for real Men as sissies are generally just fuck toys for them, nothing more. Mistress had later told me and Miss still teases me that

Her boyfriend had only done that because She asked Him to. Normally & quite naturally real Men are very disdainful to sissies an their pathetic forced effeminate feelings and the only thing He has for sissies is His cock. And swallowing His cum and spanking us of course.

Though sometimes He is quite insatiable and will want a blow job as a follow up. Mistress has since told me that She and Miss asked Him to sit me on His lap, just so they could enjoy my pathetic reaction. And that both Sir and they enjoy dismissing and sending me off to my chores in tears after sex. Mistress says She always enjoys sending me off to start hand washing Her panties after cunnilingus.    

Other Sirs have also had me sit on their knee after sex but only very rarely and only very briefly. But generally after fetching Sir a drink and thanking Him for my rape I am quickly dismissed by Sir, or Mistress.

Mistress will often tease me, telling to stop mincing around the Sir like a little bimbo, and to hurry off

back to my chores. So as I curtsy and hurry off in tears I am fearful that I might be punished later, for dallying too much. Mistress often doesn’t punish, me on these occasions but She enjoys the implied threat and the Sirs do too. Sometimes She comes down to the stuffy scullery and tells me, She loves the smell of sissy fear down here, everything smells so delightfully clean She smiles so sweetly and so, so seriously.

Some households have a cane or crop hanging unobtrusively in each room, unobtrusive of course except to sissy, who is always very fearfully aware of its presence. However Mistress prefers me to go and fetch Her canes or crop when She wants to punish me. From the cabinet besides Her bedroom dressing table. But I am constantly are that they are a finger snap from Mistress away, keeping me in a state of frightened obedience. Mistress says She loves to seeing me go pale with fright and the deer in headlights look on my face when She sends me for Her canes. And She says watching me hurry to mince upstairs, in my heels and ankle hobble as quickly and gracefully as I can. My patent pink maids booties are joined by a short 10” strap which only Mistress or the Sirs are allowed to undo. Keeping my gait like a pair of panties round my ankles, and matching the 10” dildo penetrating me, although that is now 12”. Mistress likes to keep me full as I do my housework.

I hurry breathlessly desperate not to keep Mistress waiting in any way, lest She decide to increase my punishment. I know She enjoys sending me for the canes or crop as She is always very moist after I bring the canes to Her and I am usually gagged with Her just removed panties. Afterwards naturally I have to curtsy and thank Her, kissing the canes, or the tap of the crop. Then I have to return them to Her bedroom. Then usually bring Her a cool drink as She will be thirsty with exertion. After returning the canes and fetching Mistress a drink my bottom and thighs will be smarting and throbbing. And depending on Her mood I might be told to kneel between Her thighs or sent back to my housework. Despite the fear and awful horridness of the cane I love that Mistress keeps me under Her perfect discipline so that I may serve Her obediently and lovingly. 

The paddles, switches and tawse for Sir to use, are kept in my room alongside Mistresses various strap

ons, cock gags, cuff sets and other sex toys.   My little room for sleeping in is also a room of submission for me when I am led there by one of the Men.  Mistress also uses this room to lock me in if She wishes. Often if Mistress is with one of Her boyfriends in Her bedroom I am sent there to wait, until I am needed to fetch drinks and change the sticky sheets for the lovers. Sometimes this might be several times in an evening. And of course it will one of my chores in the morning hand washing Her silk sheets before ironing them. The warm smell of Mistress and Sirs pleasure filling the little laundry room, as I squirm on my plug and scrub the sheets. They must all be ironed perfectly ready for later, as must all of Mistresses used nightwear.

I must confess that washing  Her nightwear as well as hand washing Her panties after sex are my favourite household chores. But  does make me squirm so hotly in my chastity on my plug. It feels so like I am impaled on Her hot throbbing penetration. Sissy radio always plays such sweet and sticky pathetic love songs at this time too. It is usually my first chore, after Mistress leaves for the day. After I have kissed Her bottom and curtsied to Her at the door. She will often kiss me on my cheek or forehead and pat my bottom telling me to enjoy my housework and to do

it lovingly and perfectly and then says goodbye closing and locking the door as She leaves. So I am always especially tearful and emotional at these times, longing helplessly for Her. Washing Her nightwear is so lovely I can see and feel Her gorgeous curves in the lovely expensive silk and lace negligees and night shifts.

Most of my chores involve cleaning ironing and polishing, menial housework suitable for sissymaids. And just a little cooking, but nothing too complex for sissy, as that is a skilled job, Mistress gets fresh deliveries of Her favourite meals and snacks daily. The delivery people leave it in the anteroom downstairs and I am only allowed in there to collect it after they have gone. Unlike Miss, Mistress is still very jealous of me for now, so I am not allowed to speak to or be in the presence of another superior without Her supervision or express permission.

Even though Mistress rarely uses these there is a set of canes hanging prominently on the wall of the scullery and serving area so I am constantly aware that I am kept under strict discipline.

I have to perch on the small uncomfortable stool and wait listening to them enjoying sex. The stool is

very small and hard and my seated position is designed so that it feels like I am sitting impaled on my dildo plug. Smoothing my dress and apron around me and holding the hem in curtsy cuffs. I am not allowed to fidget.

Mistress has said She is considering a dildo stool like Miss has for Her sissy its just a very long thick dildo that sissy is penetrated with as sissy sits impaled on the shaft squirming and grinding. Of course a soon as sissy is allowed to rise from the shaft She must put Her own dildo plug immediately back in. Sissies must always be locked and penetrated. Mistress & Miss have shown me a couple of videos of Her sissy on the stool. Sometimes she is like me in curtsy cuffs, other times she is in the cuffs and either cock gagged or pantie gagged. Sometimes she is in a patent leather bag hood, squirming helplessly.

Miss says cunnilingus is wonderful after sissy has been kept like that for even just a short while. And She often keeps Her sissy on the stool for hours, but then just sends sissy back to Her chores. The cunnilingus will be that much satisfying later.   

Miss says She loves telling me about Her sissy and showing me these videos. She loves watching me clench my bottom fearful on my dildo as I curtsy & squirm in helpless fright. Patting my bottom and smiling at Mistress encouraging Mistress. Knowing Mistress will follow in a few months.

Miss often lets some of Her Men friends come round and use sissy during the day when She is out, usually in 4 or 5 Men, in the afternoon. These are always random and sissy is never told about afternoon sissy parties in advance. And usually the Men leave and send sissy back to Her chores, but sometimes sissy might be left gagged and hooded impaled on Her stool, till Mistress returns. Of course in these instances, Miss is secretly delighted, barely concealed, and sissy will be punished, before being sent back to Her housework or between Miss’s now hot and wet thighs.

Miss is also saying the next phase will be clients who will pay. Either solo but preferably groups or parties. Not only will it be  a good way to profit from Her effeminized sissy, but it will be an excellent way to keep sissy so hot and horny to please Her. The role play & Her pleasure are much more important than the money of course. Although the dominant Men on the scene are very dominant and forceful with sissy they are never allowed to be rough or violent with the sissies. Not that this makes sissy feel any less vulnerable or totally a submissive bimbo for His lust. Mistress and Miss often discuss this and Mistress has said this will be a appropriate and lovely development for us.

The pleasure cuffs or rape cuffs  are made of very supply but solid leather straps. The patent leather is pastel/baby pink and the belt buckles closed around your waist. The firmly attached cuffs keep your wrists confined firmly to the small of your back. Once buckled closed sissy is unable to remove them or the belt and Her hands are kept securely out of the way, sissy is sometimes told to hold the hem of Her petticoats or dress so she is effectively cuffed and curtsying although the effect is just to lift the dress out of the way at the rear so Sir can spank her pretty little bottom more soundly. The cuffs can be locked with padlocks if desired but that is completely unnecessary as sissy is completely unable to remove the cuffs Herself. Sissy is supposed to struggle a little and prettily for Sir. But not too much. One time I struggled a little too much and knocked and very nearly spilled Sirs drink. I was sent for the crop by Mistress before Sir enjoyed my fellatio and rape. I was beaten in front and then afterwards in the evening by Mistress. She live streamed it on Her phone for Sir to see, but in fairness I’m sure if He watched or not, and I was kept cock gagged for my housework all the next day.

I was also not allowed to pee that evening or the next morning. Mistress often uses that as punishment.

She says It an old sex slavers trick, not allowing the slaves to pee before they go up on auction as they are very sensitive and squirm under rude examination. Sissies have a very strictly controlled diet and produce very little waste fecal matter, but normal amounts of pee. But it has been discovered that we can be left with our bladders full for at least a couple of days without any damage but lots of squirming discomfort. Of course we would never dare wet ourselves, even if we were able to, and when we are allowed to finally go, the deep urethral tube prevents any sense of relief or gushing, just a damp leaking sensation down there and its all done. Needlessly to say Sir quite enjoys us in this state too squirming when He rudely examines you, and being fucked by Him or the strap on makes you even more desperately unable to go.

Of course when Sir takes you to your room or down to the scullery He likes you to struggle more in the cuffs, and to cry out into your pantie gag as He holds you firmly down and rapes you. As does Mistress as She enjoys pegging you. Your frantic but feeble struggles adding immensely to their superior enjoyment.

After they are satisfied and spent, you curtsy and thank Sir, then kneel and clean His sticky still semi hard cock  with your tongue. Swallowing all the smelly sticky residue gratefully, before cleaning Sir with moist & then soft dry towels, curtsying and thanking Him before and after each servile action as you clean him. Then returning downstairs and serving Sir and the other superiors drinks before being sent back to your chores.

Your little room will be left stinking of sex and sissy vulnerability. The wet look pink satin sheets left sticky & soiled till later. Sometimes if Mistress is going out for the evening later, or having Her boyfriend over, She might not allow you to change the sheets till the next morning. Even after you have been allowed to change the sheets and air the little room is still stinks of sex and fear to sissy, even Her superiors profess to be unaware of it. The hot stink of sex, penetrated by Sir or Mistress the smell and sounds of their orgasm or cum. The smell and taste of sissy fear, you must obey and please your superior perfectly or expect to be severely punished. You will be so desperate and hot with near orgasm as you hurry back to your chores or are left still cuffed and gagged face down on the sticky satin bedsheets.

Usually after oral sex Mistress will send you to hand wash Her panties. Each pair must be washed

individually with soft soap & fingers only. Furthermore you must curtsy and kiss each pair before and after washing and hanging up. Then later before and after ironing scenting, folding then putting away. You must audibly thank Her at each stage, even if She isn’t present, for the privilege of washing Her intimates. Mistress often likes you to come into the bedroom when She is with one of Her lovers to carefully put the folding panties away. She loves half watching that and hearing Her boyfriend laugh dismissively at sissy. And you always just know that even though He laughs at you He will want perfect fellatio later.

And Sir after you have pleased Sir orally and been permitted to swallow His sticky thick load, thanking Him. If He doesn’t want to fuck your tight sissy ass, or not just yet. He might instruct you to kneel at His feet and polish His shoes with your panties. Looking up at Him submissively with your still sticky lips. This is so much more humiliating if Sir has cum in your face and décolletage. Mistress often laughs that this is so much nicer for sissy if She has  a splash of cum on Her face. Which is why She doesn’t allow Sir to blow in sissies face very often, just in my mouth.

After which I am usually quickly dismissed and sent back to my chores. Nearly about to burst into or always in tears. I am always so clingy and needy after sex. But I always have lots of chores to hurry back to.  

I know that Mistress often watches me in the serving area at these times. Her phone monitoring the little cameras around the house. She and Mistress sometimes giggle over the footage of me and Misses sissy, other sissies too. She watches them privately too and often decides whether to send me for the strap on or the cane, depending on Her fancy. Mistress sometimes confesses She wants to scream and call me back between Her thighs, but says its often so much nicer to wait for Her orgasm till later. Of course I constantly long to please Mistress and to please Her intimately, and especially so at these times. And Mistress can choose to enjoy my service or call on one of Her boyfriends if She so chooses. I must wait it is perfectly acceptable and desirable for sissies to squirm, miserable, tormented by our needs, we are just sissies.

I so love You Mistress, thank You Mistress.