Kiss

Kiss
To kiss softly, obediently adoringly, aching and longing to please Her

Monday 22 April 2013

Appropriate Appetites



Appropriate Appetites


Mistress had been angry with me. My cooking had lacked imagination, was stodgy and worse I had finished eating before She had. When I foolishly demurred that boys have more voracious appetites than women She had retorted sharply that ‘Men have bigger appetites but sissies do not & should not…and that a sissies should satisfy a her Mistresses appetite & her betters appetites.’
I had then been sent to fetch the pink leather paddle. The little studded diamanté heart pattern was not as nice, nor as cute as it had looked. Nor was it pleasant. Mistress liked to play with canes and paddles but knows that I do not and my paddling was for   punishment and as such was anything but playful. Mistress said six, after 3 I had cried out my safe word, only to be told there are no safewords during punishment and had my punishment doubled and restarted.
In tears I Thanked Mistress for disciplining me & being lenient and kind. And that She hadn’t told me to fetch Her cane.
I was also told that my scheduled and long awaited release had been postponed indefinitely.
For me to make amends Mistress had given me a gourmet cook book and I was told to prepare small well presented and tasty meals for the next two weeks. After work I had to go shopping for the ingredients in small local shops in make up and dressed. Moreover I had to curtsy in the shops and say thank you Sir or Miss when I was being served. I also had to have fresh flowers on the  table for Mistress every day.
On the first evening Mistress had tut tutted and opened Her little black book and marked some comments down. The next day I tried much harder but only received a non committal ‘thank you emily’ as feedback. I was allowed to sit down with Mistress and eat, slowly and daintily. On the fourth day Mistress told me the meal was very nice but still wrote in her black book.
I was allowed a couple of glasses of chilled water each evening instead of  my usual light beer. But at the weekend I was permitted a couple of glasses of our favourite liqueur.
On the last Friday morning Mistress told me that after dinner we would be going out that evening and I should buy some beer and put it in the fridge. I was also told that in lieu of my release I might be permitted to please Her and possible redeem myself. I had been so excited all day, that I had skipped home from the shops. Mistress was later than usual coming home and when I heard the door opening I thought my heart would burst I was so happy to see Her.
My heart nearly did burst when I opened the door to Her & standing there with Her was a man.
‘This is Mike, emily, say hello emily.
‘Yes Mistress….hello…’ I had replied very, very  meekly and quietly.
‘You may call him Sir, emily’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Tut tut’ I gulped  ‘and emily ?’ Mistress said.
‘Hello & welcome Sir.’
‘That’s better emily, take Sirs coat.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
I had fetched Mistress and Sir a wine and one of my beers while they sat and waited for dinner to be ready.
‘So this is your sissy ?’
‘Yes it is Mike’
‘And he is locked up?’
‘She, she  is locked up Mike yes.’
‘May I see ?’
‘Of course you can Mike, emily go and show Mike your little clittie, and emily make sure you stand close to Mike, stop hovering and dithering next to me.”
‘Yes Mistress’ I had whispered.
Mike had casually had lifted my maids skirt and petticoats, dropped my pink panties, then idly fondled my cage and lock to my intense embarrassment.
I looked down only to see a growing bulge in Sirs pants. I didn’t dare look up at Him, nor look anywhere else except at the bulge.
‘She is small isn’t she and the cage is so tiny.’
‘She is only allowed to be the right size Mike, emily isn’t allowed to get any bigger or hard, that would be completely inappropriate, wouldn’t it emily ?’
‘Yes Mistress.’ I had replied red faced and squirming while Sir idly played with the lock on my cage.
‘I’m going to have a bath before dinner emily.’
‘Yes Mistress.’ I replied starting to turn round to go and run Mistresses bath.
‘Oh no need for you to run it emily, I can do it myself tonight, you can stay and entertain my guest.’
‘Mistress ?’
‘Yes emily ?’
‘How Mistress ?’
‘How does a sissy entertain one of Mistresses male guests, emily.’
‘Mistress ?’
‘Its what we talked about isn’t it emily, and what you said you thought you wanted isn’t it emily, to be like a real girly emily ?’
‘Yes Mistress.’ I had whispered blushing bright red.
Mistress laughed ‘Oh emily, your face is a picture. Not like that silly girl’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Not yet at least, just stand close to him and be a nice little flirty bimbo emily.’
I blushed bright red.
As if to ease my embarrassment or increase it Sir patted my bottom and opened his legs pulling me almost onto His lap.
‘That’s better emily, you can entertain or please Sir after my bath, when I can watch.’
 ‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Come here, closer emily, your Mistress has told me all about you.’ He said parting His knees even wider.
‘Yes Sir.’
He lifted my dress again and continued to play with my lock and cage, I squirmed with embarrassment listening and hoping desperately for Mistress upstairs.
‘Emily, put your hands down my trousers and feel what a real man feels like, sissy.’
‘Yes Sir.’
I didn’t dare disobey.
He was very hard and tight down there.
‘I like the way you are shrinking in your cage while you feel my nice hard cock emily.’
‘Yes Sir, thank you Sir.’ I looked up at him, smiling in spite of my fluster.
‘That’s better emily, I want you to be vulnerable and blushing, but not too much.’
‘Yes Sir, thank you Sir.’
He directed one of my hands down his shaft and around his balls, the other around him. They felt huge while he fondled my tiny sissy cherries.
‘Do you get tight in your cage when you are thinking about sucking emily ?’
‘Yes Sir.’ I whispered.
‘But its good that you get even smaller now isn’t it emily, because like your Mistress says you don’t deserve to get hard do you.’
‘No Sir I don’t’    
He squeezed my cherries softly.
‘Or to cum, do you emily ?’
‘Yes Sir nor to cum.’
‘Good girl emily, fetch me another one of those beers emily.’ He said patting my bottom.
 ‘Yes Sir, thank you Sir.’
Mistress came down shortly afterwards. I looked up at her acutely embarrassed with my hands once again down Sirs pants, slowly rubbing him up and down as he had told me to.
‘Having fun Mike ?’ She said laughing
‘Yes thank you.’
‘Go and wash your hands emily and fetch me a wine.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Then fetch my guest another beer and you may serve dinner, I hope its good tonight sissy.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
After dinner at which I wasn’t allowed to sit with Mistress & Her guest nor to have any dinner. Mistress said She didn’t want to ruin my appetite. They both sat down in the lounge. Mistress told me to go and kneel next to Sir and see if He wanted anything.
He patted my bottom again and opened the zip on his jeans.
‘Emily don’t swallow straight away, savour the taste.’ Mistress told me.
My mouth felt very full.
‘Open your mouth and show me emily.’
‘Now you may swallow now emily.’
 I slowly swallowed careful not to gulped it down.
‘Thank You Mistress.’
‘And what do you say emily?’
‘Thank You Sir.’
‘That’s better emily.’
‘Good girl emily.’ Sir had said patting my head as I knelt between his legs.
‘Go and clean your face & wash your hands emily then fetch me a wine.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Was she a good girl Mike?’
‘Quite pleasant.’
‘Good make sure you tell your friends Mike, emily needs lots of practice’
He laughed
‘I need to get going, thanks for dinner and emily’s eager little mouth.’
‘You are welcome Mike, call round any time.’
She looked down at me.
‘And what do you say emily ?.’
‘Thank You Sir, please call round again Sir.’
‘That’s better emily, fetch  Sirs coat & see him to the door.’
‘Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.’
After Sir had gone Mistress told me to kneel at her feet, opened her legs and put her knees over my shoulders pulling me close.
‘Mistress, I’m sorry I was so nervous and embarrassed.’
‘That’s ok emily, I thought you were quite endearing.’
‘Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.’
‘When you first came home with him Mistress, I thought You were going to sleep with him Mistress.’
‘Oh don’t be silly emily, that’s your sissy job, pleasing men, and pleasing me.’
‘Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.’
She pulled me closer, very close.
‘And I did very much enjoy that emily.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘In fact you gave me quite an appetite emily.’
Afterwards Mistress lifted Her knees from around my neck and lay back sighing happily.
‘Go and wash your face and hands emily and fetch me another wine please emily.’
‘Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.’
‘Oh and you can have one of your beers now emily, I think you may have one left.’
‘Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.’
‘But I think you have had enough to eat tonight haven’t you emily.’
‘Thank You Mistress. Mistress may I change my panties as well Mistress ?’
I hadn’t noticed Mistress holding Candy Cane before. Until She lifted the front of my dress with it.
‘When did that happen emily, when you were pleasing Sir or pleasing me.’
‘I don’t know Mistress, it just comes out Mistress, I don’t feel it coming out till I notice I am all wet Mistress.’
‘Silly emily….yes emily, but if you are going to be such a wet little sissy next time you can wear them all night.’
‘Yes Mistress thank You Mistress.’
‘I’m sure Mike will be telling his gay & bi friends all about you emily.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘I may start expecting you to earn tips emily.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Kneel next to my feet for a while and you may massage my feet soon emily.’
‘Yes Mistress thank You Mistress.’

Monday 15 April 2013

Appetite



Appetites

Mistress had been angry with me. My cooking had lacked imagination, was stodgy and worse I had finished eating before She had. When I foolishly demurred that boys have more voracious appetites than women She had retorted sharply that ‘Men have bigger appetites but sissies do not & should not…and that a sissies should satisfy a her Mistresses appetite & her betters appetites.’
I had then been sent to fetch the pink leather paddle. The little studded diamanté heart pattern was not as nice, nor as cute as it had looked. Nor was it pleasant. Mistress liked to play with canes and paddles but knows that I do not and my paddling was for   punishment and as such was anything but playful. Mistress said six, after 3 I had cried out my safe word, only to be told there are no safewords during punishment and had my punishment doubled and restarted.
In tears I Thanked Mistress for disciplining me & being lenient and kind. And that She hadn’t told me to fetch the cane.
I was also told that my scheduled and long awaited release had been postponed indefinitely.
For me to make amends Mistress had given me a gourmet cook book and I was told to prepare small well presented and tasty meals for the next two weeks. After work I had to go shopping for the ingredients in small local shops in make up and dressed. Moreover I had to curtsy in the shops and say thank you Sir or Miss when I was being served. I also had to have fresh flowers on the  table for Mistress every day.
On the first evening Mistress had tut tutted and opened Her little black book and marked some comments down. The next day I tried much harder but only received a non committal ‘thank you emily’ as feedback. I was allowed to sit down with Mistress and eat, slowly and daintily. On the fourth day Mistress told me the meal was very nice but still wrote in her black book.
I was allowed a couple of glasses of chilled water each evening instead of  my usual light beer. But at the weekend I was permitted a couple of glasses of our favourite liqueur.
On the last Friday morning Mistress told me that after dinner we would be going out that evening and I should buy some beer and put it in the fridge. I was also told that in lieu of my release I might be permitted to please Her and possible redeem myself. I had been so excited all day, that I had skipped home from the shops. Mistress was later than usual coming home and when I heard the door opening I thought my heart would burst I was so happy to see Her.
My heart nearly did burst when She came in with Her man friend.
‘This is Mike, emily, he will be eating with me tonight and going out with us later emily’. I was told.
‘Yes Mistress.’ I had replied very, very  meekly and quietly.
‘You may call him Sir, emily’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Tut tut’ I gulped  ‘and emily ?’ Mistress said.
‘Welcome Sir.’
‘That’s better emily, take Sirs coat.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
I had fetched Mistress and Sir a wine and one of my beers while they sat and waited for dinner to be ready.
‘So this is your sissy ?’
‘Yes it is Mike’
‘And he is locked up?’
‘She, she  is locked up Mike yes.’
‘May I see ?’
‘Of course you can Mike, emily go and show Mike your little clittie, and emily make sure you stand close to Mike, stop hovering and dithering next to me.”
‘Yes Mistress’ I had whispered.
Mike had casually had lifted my maids skirt and petticoats, dropped my pink panties, then idly fondled my cage and lock to my intense embarrassment.
I looked down only to see a growing bulge in Sirs pants. I didn’t dare look up at Him, nor look anywhere else except at the bulge.
‘She is small isn’t she and the cage is so tiny.’
‘She is only allowed to be the right size Mike, emily isn’t allowed to get any bigger or hard, that would be completely inappropriate, wouldn’t it emily ?’
‘Yes Mistress.’ I had replied red faced and squirming while Sir idly played with the lock on my cage.
‘I’m going to have a bath before dinner emily.’
‘Yes Mistress.’ I replied starting to turn round to go and run Mistresses bath.
‘Oh no need for you to run it emily, I can do it myself tonight, you can stay and entertain my guest.’
‘Mistress ?’
‘Yes emily ?’
‘How Mistress ?’
‘How does a sissy entertain one of Mistresses male guests, emily.’
‘Mistress ?’
‘Its what we talked about isn’t it emily, and what you said you thought you wanted isn’t it emily, to be like a real girly emily ?’
‘Yes Mistress.’ I had whispered blushing bright red.
‘Well then emily, Sir would like you to entertain him.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Kneel here emily, your Mistress has told me all about you.’ He said parting His knees.
‘Yes Sir.’
‘Oh and emily.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Don’t swallow till I come back emily, I want to see.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
When Mistress came back downstairs I had been holding it in my mouth for over 5 minutes. Sir had also wanted another beer after I had finished, & while I washed him.
When Mistress did come down She had me open my mouth and show Her Sirs pleasure.
‘Was she a good girl Mike?’
‘Quite pleasant.’
‘Very well you may swallow now emily.’
 I gulped it down.
‘Thank You Mistress.’
‘And what do you say emily?’
‘Thank You Sir.’
‘That’s better emily.’
‘Good girl emily.’ Sir had said patting my bottom.
‘Go and wash your hands emily and fetch me a wine.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘Then fetch my guest another beer and you may serve dinner.’
‘Yes Mistress.’
‘You may go and fix your makeup and put your pink dress on while we are eating emily.’
‘And I think you have had enough to eat and drink tonight haven’t you emily.’
‘Yes Mistress, thank you Mistress.’
‘Mistress I thought You said I would be pleasing You Mistress?’ I suddenly blurted out.
‘And you have emily.’
‘Oh!’
‘Didn’t You want to watch Mistress.’
‘Maybe next time emily.’
‘Good girl emily.’
‘Thank You Mistress. Mistress may I change my panties as well Mistress ?’
I hadn’t noticed Mistress holding the cane before. Until She lifted the front of my dress with it.
‘Yes emily, but if you are going to be such a wet little sissy next time you can wear them all night.’
‘Next time Mistress?’
‘Yes next time emily.’
‘Yes Mistress, thank you Mistress.’ I felt like crying as I went upstairs.
 ‘She has a cute little ass too.’ I heard Sir say
‘Yes she does Mike, but that’s not for you Mike.’
I heard Mistress & Sir laugh.
‘Not yet at least Mike.’
I heard them both laugh again.

Tuesday 12 February 2013

Sissymaids should be good girls & be seen & not heard ?

I like to kneel quietly with Mistress.
I like it best when i can kneel close to Her feet and look up at Her.
And to occasionally reach up and hold and or kiss Her hand softly in appreciation.
Not disturbing Her but there & ready to serve Her.
I like to be submissive & placid, and not try to be clever and or
boyish with Her
I hope thats what You  like & want too Mistress
Curtsy Mistress
emily

Tuesday 29 January 2013

The Holiday


Its still early when i wake up on Your bedroom floor, but the sun is out and bright already. I kneel upright quietly and look at You still sleeping for a few moments. Your hand is hanging over the side of the bed and i fold it back across your belly, kissing it very softly so as not to wake You before tiptoeing downstairs.
The kitchen and living room are still a mess from the night before. I clear away & clean the wine glasses, cigarette  ash and plates quietly. Wiping down all the surfaces and lighting scented candles to take away the stale odours. Its still very early when i’ve finished, & You, Miss * & miss * are still likely to be sleeping for some time. So i take  a cup of tea and smoke outside in the early morning sunshine. Its already warm enough in my little polka dot summer dress so i take off my maids apron and fold it neatly besides me.
Looking up to Your bedroom window, i squirm & shift slightly uncomfortably in my cage as i think about You sleeping. I decide to go for a walk in the nearby woods before i need to come back and serve breakfast. Sipping on another cup of tea i brush my wig and put on some light makeup. I use the downstairs loo quietly not wanting to wake anyone and not wanting to need to pee out in the woods. I hate having to stand to pee like a boy now, much prefer perching on the loo like a good sissy with my pretty panties round my ankles.
Its way too warm for stockings or tights so i just put on some cotton ankle socks under the nice pink floral patterned rubber boots you chose for me and set off.
The woods are very quiet & we haven’t see anyone near the cottage yet so i feel quite safe. I’m  always anxious when i’m out on my own. What if someone catches me in my dress, i wish i was more convincing & femme but i’m not. Or worse still what if someone catches me & decides to take advantage of me. It makes me feel awfully  vulnerable & acutely aware of what it must have felt like to be  a woman in the past, or still today in one of those horrible foreign countries....
I’m looking for the nice wildflowers where we saw them yesterday. For the breakfast table & for You Mistress. They were quite close to the cottage but still a good ten minutes walk into the woods. This morning there seems to be lots more to pick so i gather a nice big basketful for the cottage and a pretty little posy just especially for You Mistress.
Then in the distance in the woods i hear faint voices and spy some movement, perhaps we aren't so far off the beaten track as i thought we were. They are still some way away. Even so i turn back to the cottage and hurry back quickly. Only stopping to have a calming  smoke, once i am at the back of the cottage in the little hedged in garden.
Some time later when i’m inside arranging the flowers in bowls in the living room and kitchen, I hear stirring noises upstairs. I know you wont be awake just yet. So i  start making a fresh pot of coffee for Miss A & miss L for when they come downstairs. Then take a special strong filtered coffee up to You.
Kneeling by the bed i touch Your hand softly and whisper
“Mistress good morning Mistress.”
You mumble something half asleep then wake up a slowly looking down from the bed at me.
“Good morning emily”
“Hello Mistress, i brought You some coffee Mistress.” I smile up at You
“Good girl emily leave it on the side.”
“Yes Mistress & this Mistress.” i say holding the posy up to You.
You look down smiling and then slide in the bed, slipping out to one side. brushing the wig back from my face and placing Your legs either side of my shoulders, crossing them behind me and pulling me towards you.
“You are a good girl emily.” You tell me....
I change the sheets & make the  bed while You are showering.
Downstairs in the kitchen miss * asks what we are both looking so pleased with ourselves about.
“Well i dont know about locked little emily...but...” You reply
Both Miss * & miss * giggle as i blush profusely.
“Coffee please emily.” You tell me.
“Yes Mistress.”
“Lighter please emily.”
“Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.”
After breakfast after i’ve cleaned the pots and table away you come and pat my bottom as i’m stood at the sink.
“We are going for a walk this morning, You have plenty of chores to be getting on with emily, dont you sissy ?.”
“Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.”
“But if You are a good girl this morning we may take you to the pub with us this afternoon & you can have a half a lager.”
“Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.”
“After all we are on holiday arent we sissy emily.”
“Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.” I  say turning and curtsying

The Bathroom

You call me into the steamy bathroom.
“emily where’s my towel.”
“Here Mistress.”
I reply holding up the soft towel to You as You step out of the shower. I try to keep my eyes lowered respectfully. Not straying on Your lovely soft body without permission.
“emily ?”
“Yes Mistress ?”
“Look at me emily”
“Yes Mistress ?” I whisper looking into Your eyes,
Are they sparkling with mischief or irritation ?.
“Did you look at my body without permission again emily.”
I redden with embarrassment, but also with desire & nervousness.
“Mistress....”
You keep looking deeply into my eyes. I remember well the six strokes i received for looking at You without permission. And the six strokes i got for trying to fib the last time You asked. And the additional 20 strokes i got for not looking, not being compelled to gaze at your loveliness, or at least trying to fib that i wasn’t.
“Stop squirming emily”
“Yes Mistress.”
“So were You looking emily?”
“Yes Mistress, sorry Mistress.”
“Thats ok emily, sometimes i want to give You something to think about in that tiny cage of Yours emily.”
“Yes Mistress.” i whisper in discomfort now
“And stop squirming emily, if you can sissymaid....”
“Yes Mistress, sorry Mistress”
“Go and make me some fresh coffee emily & then you may clean the bathroom.”
“Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress.”
Curtsy Mistress
emily

The morning

“Good morning Mistress”
You take Your morning coffee from my outstretched hands as I curtsy.
“Thank you emily.” You say patting the corner of the bed for me to sit
“Yes Mistress thank You Mistress.” I say smiling happily. Curtsying again & sitting down gracefully keeping my knees together.
Sometimes You  let me sit on the edge of Your bed while You drink Your first coffee. Sometimes You even let me hold Your hand gently in the morning. Sometimes You permit me to kneel by Your bed gazing up at You adoringly. At other times You have me kneel outside Your bedroom door, waiting in my pinny for You. Sometimes You simply send me back downstairs to fuss and clean in the kitchen til You come down.
This morning i am allowed to perch on the edge of Your bed, but not to hold Your hand. I brush back my wig from my face, then hold my hands in my lap, just happy to sit & to be with You this morning. Then You slip into the bathroom, telling me to make Your bed.
“Yes Mistress, thank You Mistress” I whisper happily. Always even the smallest things about serving You make me so happy Mistress. So content yet excited Mistress.
I straighten & smooth Your satin bedsheets. Leaning over i kiss the little hollow left in the memory foam by Your body. Then slip onto the bed and lie in the hollow. Curling up into the shape as closely as i can, still feeling Your body warmth & inhaling Your sweet  scent. Lying there day dreaming about You, slowly losing myself in thinking about You Mistress. Trying not to fall asleep there, but wanting to linger blissfully in half waking reverie.  
Then I hear You calling me. I jerk awake glancing anxiously at the long cane hanging on the wardrobe door. How long did i drift away for? How long have You been calling me? Getting up quickly i smooth the duvet cover and rush into the bathroom to fetch You a towel. Hoping You will allow me to dry You. Hoping i’m not in trouble. Wanting so much to please You.
“Yes Mistress.” I whisper almost running into the bathroom to give You Your towel & clean up after You.
“Thank you emily.” You say politely as always, strict but always a perfect lady. Taking the towel & smiling.
“Yes Mistress thank You Mistress.”
Curtsy Mistress

Going to the loo

Mistress is very kind to me
She lets me ask Her for permission to go to the loo
She lets me go to the loo when i ask Her for permission
If we are out i have to wait till She or or others have finished
talking to ask Her quietly
I must ask Her in front of anyone present
Its humiliating to ask in public
I like asking Your permission for something so intimate Mistress
Thank You Mistress
emily